At first I made this blog for a personal diary. So I hope you, readers, don't mind if i'm using it as one right now, here I am writing a confession of what i'm feeling lately. (..the bubbly girl you see on Twitter / blog may turning into a very introvert & shy person here, in this post, when it comes about love. :)
♥♥♥
...about a guy.
It's been pretty long time since I wrote something personal like love stuffs, since I decided to be single and not fall for anyone.
Feel enough of things that won't go the way we intended, not ready yet to lose anyone, again. I only want the one that last.
Dear you.
I sometimes hating myself for being such a kooky girl (which go even worse whenever I'm near to someone I like.) Yes, I hate being speechless and start doing something weird & out of my mind when I stand near you. I try not to stutter to say a little Hi. I try so hard to stay calm but my heart's pounding so fast like it's gonna pop out of its place. Even when you're not around, you're still everywhere all over my head like a disease... say it straight to you is the hardest thing to do, so maybe the best thing I can do now is just write it down here.
I'm counting the things I know about you. I guess I'm quite good at stalking. Only about 4 - 5 things. Yea, I need to know you more.
(ps: I really really really REALLY wish you don't read this.)
first, you are cute.
you don't know this, but we have the same favorite color.
(..we play the same music instrument, too. yay! :)
we're both fanatically lovin one same band.
you're silly. you're you're smart. you're sweet. you're fun. you're different.
last thing, you're a bit reminds me of Chuck Bass. that means... yeaaa. :)
..I guess I'm in love. The sign is obvious. I don't know if i'm really gonna fall for somebody this time, all I know, you've stolen my attention. I just met you. I wish I knew you earlier, long ago. But I wish this is still not too late. Yet this is not the right time to take a little shy step closer. I guess for now I'll still gazing you from far. :)